Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to

I chose to write to Torie, and I know the title is, "The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to" but I'm taking it in another way-- these are some things I have been wanting to say but haven't. Because-- I tell you everything about me and my life-- so this is to you baby sister.

Victoria

I want to tell you so many things-- but I feel that you should learn them on your own. I want to shield you from every asshole and bitch you will ever have to meet. I want to prevent you from making the mistakes I did. I want you to concentrate on your grades, because you will never know how important they are to your future. I want you to listen to mom and know that what she says usually is right. I want you to never settle for anyone or thing less than perfect. I want your feelings to always be protected, but I guess pain is part of life and growing up. I hope you know that everything I say and if I ever critique you or go against what you feel-- I'm doing it because I love you and want to help you. My criticism is constructive and that I can promise you. We both do not like being told we are wrong or that we need to change something, but I only do it so that you can hear it from me and not someone who doesn't care. I know we fight and I know I say things you don't like but I do it because I love you and I know that if you are mad at me-- we will overcome it. So understand this... If I could take every tear drop away, ever regret away, every pain away.. I would. Just know that (unfortunately) pain is a part of life and overcoming that pain is what makes you a whole hell of a lot stronger. I know someday I will say something that will just make you want to kick my ass-- but we will get through the fight because-- Our bond is something people dream of and know that no matter what happens I will forever love you.